tell me.

As i grew up,  the differences between good and bad are inter-colliding in my conscience in which i no longer knew which side i am. I grew up having a deep faith in my religion yet as i entered up my college life, everything's changed.This doesn't mean that i'm putting up a bad image against tertiary level but know your actions before you do such things, we are accountable in whatever choices we make in life . And now I am very much afraid on things that I've done.  Now tell me " Am i considered now as a sinner?? " considering my faith of worship?
    I am a Christian, sculpted with the values of the church and living with the virtues of God. I believe in heaven and the presence of hell. Sinners goes to hell and righteous goes to heaven . My family believes that I'm a good and obedient daughter yet they don't know what I've done during times when they're not around. Now tell me am I now considered as a disobedient daughter?
    I go out with friends i drink with them had fun with them and hang out wherever we wanted to. I even don't go home if I feel like it "What's the point in going home when you arrived you feel like all alone and thinks like nobody cares for you? " My friends think that I'm lucky enough having such kind of mom, well I cannot blame my mom for this, I just blame the situation.  I cannot say that i'm a good girl but that's somehow i think of myself. Having a hard time knowing why I am like this don't know why am I writing this. Well at some point of our life we tend to know which side are we really in .

                    Now tell me am I on the good or on the bad??