almost.

as in never i have imagined in my whole life that scenes i only had seen on movies can be such a reality. And one thing I can promise to myself that I will never go home late.' as in promise. It is such an experience I wouldn't like to feel again although we do had a lot of fun but this to much. Mom's right as always. And now i'm left here at the house refraining from going to school because my body tells me so. I got home 3:00 in the morning, passengers were staring at me esp. i'm still wearing my school uniform well actually it bothers me.. what were they thinking of ?? tsk tsk. I'm afraid of what might happened to me we were of a short budget no extra for emergency and no everything, no load ,empty cellphone battery , no friend to call in to and time is running out time. But still God is with us. we still came home safe. It is a lesson learned.. ALMOST. :)

tell me.

As i grew up,  the differences between good and bad are inter-colliding in my conscience in which i no longer knew which side i am. I grew up having a deep faith in my religion yet as i entered up my college life, everything's changed.This doesn't mean that i'm putting up a bad image against tertiary level but know your actions before you do such things, we are accountable in whatever choices we make in life . And now I am very much afraid on things that I've done.  Now tell me " Am i considered now as a sinner?? " considering my faith of worship?
    I am a Christian, sculpted with the values of the church and living with the virtues of God. I believe in heaven and the presence of hell. Sinners goes to hell and righteous goes to heaven . My family believes that I'm a good and obedient daughter yet they don't know what I've done during times when they're not around. Now tell me am I now considered as a disobedient daughter?
    I go out with friends i drink with them had fun with them and hang out wherever we wanted to. I even don't go home if I feel like it "What's the point in going home when you arrived you feel like all alone and thinks like nobody cares for you? " My friends think that I'm lucky enough having such kind of mom, well I cannot blame my mom for this, I just blame the situation.  I cannot say that i'm a good girl but that's somehow i think of myself. Having a hard time knowing why I am like this don't know why am I writing this. Well at some point of our life we tend to know which side are we really in .

                    Now tell me am I on the good or on the bad??

my photostory :))

http://www.4shared.com/folder/JVIWrQ2I/photostory.html

super happy.'

  we went to the Zzubu recording station near Ayala to have our dubbing for our short film. The start of the day isn't so sweet, we go together with sir ruel hiring up a taxi going to the said location. We arrived exploring the venue, we went up to the studio and it's my first time being there, together with the other casts who have the same feeling of excitement. And when it's my turn its kinda tense.' dont know what to do all alone in the arena with the aircon freezing on you and what i just did is to follow the instructions from the experts. And all I can say is it's never easy! hahaha oh my gosh! but with the help of friends things flow out naturally. :)
But then I just noticed something, something very intriguing hmmmmm. smells fishy.' and its very confedential!!! hahahha :)))) Well aq nlang to >:p
bastah kay super happy kay i've been with him the whole day :))

"journalism is a very dangerous job"

      "to comfort the afflicted, to afflict the comforted"

it's my decision.

What everybody else is thinking is their FUTURE.

They always reprimand us to FINISH OUR STUDIES first before anything else.
 NEVER GET MARRIED EARLY! and to never get PREGNANT in this early stages.
  Life always has a lot of twist and turns. It tests us to be strong and independent, it has a lot TEMPTATIONS and it is up to us to go with the flow or to resist the current. And so my decision is final, im gonna stay as long as i can carry, it's not that ii don't care for you anymore I'm just thinking about my future and ways in avoiding that strong current that I think is running through generation. I am still your daughter and you are still my mom. ii LOVE you so much :* And i'm gonna the best to attain that certain future. And that's my final decision :)

:(

mag dance pad ta nah!!! atot gnhan na keu ko mutamak sa mahumok nimu na texture.' ;'(

a friend ??

 It was early in the morning when i arrived at school, I saw Jason together with my  friends Emily and Jeff, they invited me to come with them at the CCTN for an audition since they have no class they have all the time to enjoy but then for us, Cyril, we both do have class and so without any further ado they left us without having any second thoughts at all. And what was just my concern is  if WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER THEN WHY WOULD THEY LEFT US? Although it cuts and hurts a lot  my heart (kay garum ug nasuya oks) i am still happy for the scheduled workshop given to them mga talented jud ming mga circle of friends :)) Lovin it <3

Am I my brother's keeper??

 i love my brother so much :)) although he is at sometimes a demonic person always touches my things usahy mu tug'an ni momy kung unsay sayup aqng nbuhat gnha, mangaway, manghapak but despite all of these i do still love you my dear brother despite of all the oppositions and heart breaks you gave me.' and sometimes di pjud ka mupatuo nku!! arrgh. But what can i do our older siblings had decided to make a family of their own and our dear mother had married again which lefts both of us. But i know they will still be on our way to guide us we just have to rely on them and to ourselves :)) I Love you so much bro.' :*

It hurts.'

  How can someone  completely forget the past when at the present still he is the one your looking for?

I was shocked when I heard the news ,straight from the guy himself, that the man whom I imagined raising kids and building a family is getting married with another girl.!! It hurts but what hurts more is that " ayaw na og comment or post xa aq fb kay si **** na ang mugamit " ATOT! FB rman lang gani ko kakita nimu!! well anyways i'm happy for both of you bisag nagsakit aqng dughan :)) I think it's a wrong decision leaving  you before but you promised me na "huwaton ko nimu after 3 yrs dba??"  And then by just a week or two naa nkay lain?? I called you one time asking to be with you again sorry if i hurt you i just dont know what had come into my mind I guess i've loved you in ways i dont know. I thought we were destined to be together "I've lost you once and i couldn't imagine if i lost you again" that's what i wrote on my notebook and you know that and now i never knew that at the end of our story there was never really us. i love you not as a lover but as of  this days and the days to come a  friends we can be :*  Best wishes :))

this is dedicated to my ex Hervie Inoc ( hopes he doesn't have a blog account :p haha )

paranormal romance audition.'

 haha never in my whole life ii had ever imagine myself vying for a role in an independent film. Honestly speaking when i heard about the said audition all i said is "ok with enthusiasm but never with the idea of performing the act."

June 24, friday was the first day of the audition and i dont know what came up with my friend's mind that they wanted to join and just texted me to audition also so with peer pressure i hurriedly went to the school when in fact i was drunk actually not that drunk but i have drank maybe two shots of that liquor.?  so when i arrived at the school right in time it was my friends turn to go inside and let them see what you have. So as i waited outside with my other barkadas tension was in the air with the one next to go in line.

My friends already left me,  since i was the last one to past my form i waited for hours to wait my turn and just to relieve the tension  i to practiced  for our dance troupe and so i already changed my outfit and i was turning a little bit weird coz i was wearing a what was that a  practice attire?? :)

and so when it was my turn literary they were looking for actors an actresses to perform the roles and i am not an actress so what i did i just showed them who i am walang halong ka plastikan :)) and even in how i read the given lines haha parang wala lang :)) But then that was it. A very wonderful experience although if they would not want to get me but then still by chance i was able to show my personality :))

A Glimpse of ME.

 Emotions scattered all over the area i am but a bit  scared and helpless as i turn on the light. And there i feel so immovable feeling like a numb as a look for a warm hands to eradicate the hotness of the night.

 haha to be continued :)

Gracias Deo

 To God be the Glory.

 i am Sueshem and i am such a friendly person haha.'


and that's it for now :)) haha >:)