Am I my brother's keeper??

 i love my brother so much :)) although he is at sometimes a demonic person always touches my things usahy mu tug'an ni momy kung unsay sayup aqng nbuhat gnha, mangaway, manghapak but despite all of these i do still love you my dear brother despite of all the oppositions and heart breaks you gave me.' and sometimes di pjud ka mupatuo nku!! arrgh. But what can i do our older siblings had decided to make a family of their own and our dear mother had married again which lefts both of us. But i know they will still be on our way to guide us we just have to rely on them and to ourselves :)) I Love you so much bro.' :*

It hurts.'

  How can someone  completely forget the past when at the present still he is the one your looking for?

I was shocked when I heard the news ,straight from the guy himself, that the man whom I imagined raising kids and building a family is getting married with another girl.!! It hurts but what hurts more is that " ayaw na og comment or post xa aq fb kay si **** na ang mugamit " ATOT! FB rman lang gani ko kakita nimu!! well anyways i'm happy for both of you bisag nagsakit aqng dughan :)) I think it's a wrong decision leaving  you before but you promised me na "huwaton ko nimu after 3 yrs dba??"  And then by just a week or two naa nkay lain?? I called you one time asking to be with you again sorry if i hurt you i just dont know what had come into my mind I guess i've loved you in ways i dont know. I thought we were destined to be together "I've lost you once and i couldn't imagine if i lost you again" that's what i wrote on my notebook and you know that and now i never knew that at the end of our story there was never really us. i love you not as a lover but as of  this days and the days to come a  friends we can be :*  Best wishes :))

this is dedicated to my ex Hervie Inoc ( hopes he doesn't have a blog account :p haha )

paranormal romance audition.'

 haha never in my whole life ii had ever imagine myself vying for a role in an independent film. Honestly speaking when i heard about the said audition all i said is "ok with enthusiasm but never with the idea of performing the act."

June 24, friday was the first day of the audition and i dont know what came up with my friend's mind that they wanted to join and just texted me to audition also so with peer pressure i hurriedly went to the school when in fact i was drunk actually not that drunk but i have drank maybe two shots of that liquor.?  so when i arrived at the school right in time it was my friends turn to go inside and let them see what you have. So as i waited outside with my other barkadas tension was in the air with the one next to go in line.

My friends already left me,  since i was the last one to past my form i waited for hours to wait my turn and just to relieve the tension  i to practiced  for our dance troupe and so i already changed my outfit and i was turning a little bit weird coz i was wearing a what was that a  practice attire?? :)

and so when it was my turn literary they were looking for actors an actresses to perform the roles and i am not an actress so what i did i just showed them who i am walang halong ka plastikan :)) and even in how i read the given lines haha parang wala lang :)) But then that was it. A very wonderful experience although if they would not want to get me but then still by chance i was able to show my personality :))

A Glimpse of ME.

 Emotions scattered all over the area i am but a bit  scared and helpless as i turn on the light. And there i feel so immovable feeling like a numb as a look for a warm hands to eradicate the hotness of the night.

 haha to be continued :)

Gracias Deo

 To God be the Glory.

 i am Sueshem and i am such a friendly person haha.'


and that's it for now :)) haha >:)